It's not just a sex thing
By Samantha King
“The dreams I dream are that of a man to sweep me
from this place. I know I’ve heard all the feminist rantings, we don’t need a
man. But God damn it, I want one. Not
one of those silly boys, not some macho hero, I want a man who wants me. Maybe
it’s some warped daddy issue, maybe I didn’t get spanked enough or some stupid
Freudian thing. But I just want to be needed.
I love the idea of some Phantom of the Opera desiring me as much as he
did Christine. I wouldn’t care that he was
deformed. Hell yeah I want a man who would steal me away from the world, one
that would kill for me. Ok well maybe not kill for me well maybe, no; that just
made me sound psychotic.”
Lily sat in a huge green leather chair, facing a
tiny frail looking grey haired woman, who took notes like it was some sort of
marathon. She would look up at Lily
every now and then, and nod. Lily had no
idea what was going through her brain as she blurted out her one greatest
desire.
“So who played your favourite Phantom?” she asked
Lily, her glasses sitting perched on the tip of her nose. Lily wanted to reach over and push them up
her face properly. Just the little things irritated Lily.
“Well it’s either Michael Crawford or Gerard
Butler. I think probably Gerard Butler,
only because it was made into a movie and I can watch him.” After all it was
Gerard Butler’s face behind the mask she thought about in the dark, but she
wasn’t going to tell this woman about it, she might just die of a stroke.
“So is it the Phantom that you are obsessed with or
Gerard Butler?”
“No definite the Phantom, I mean don’t get me wrong,
Gerard has very sexy eyes, a body I could lick for hours, and an accent that
makes me weak at the knees, but it’s not until I see him in the mask, playing
that dark and mysterious role and singing with that dark gravelly voice, that’s
when he is at his most lustful, it’s the Phantom I want. I never understood, why Christine would ever
want to run away with that other ridiculous man Raoul”
The woman was scribbling away, Lily couldn’t quite
make out what she was writing, but she was sure that it would be something
about how she was insane, with major sexual hang ups. After all isn’t that what all therapists were
about?
“So have you ever acted out being Christine in your
sexual life?”
Lily blushed, she had. But it didn’t end well. Her boyfriend dumped her the next day. He was
mortified by the whole thing. Mason had
been a great boyfriend, so patient; he knew that he had to share their lives
with this fictional character. Then one
day she had asked him, if he would wear the mask, while they made love. He had
agreed, but then something took hold of Lily.
She became an animal, tearing at his skin with her nails and teeth. It
was no longer making love, but hard core animalistic fucking. She loved it;
Mason, well not so. A buzzer suddenly chimed and broke Lily’s thought.
“Lily I’m sorry but our session is finished for
today, can we pick this up again next week?” the woman had at least fixed her
glasses.
Lily smiled and stood up, feeling like she had
accomplished nothing. She wasn’t any
less addicted to the Phantom or Gerard Butler’s version of him. As she left the faceless building in a sea of
buildings, she couldn’t shake the night with Mason out of her mind. She was sorry that it had weirded Mason out.
But she wanted more, not just the sex, but the danger, the unknown, the being
stolen away. Lily had even once taken
opera lessons, in hope that she could join some old theatre that just might
have an opera ghost. She didn’t even
finish out the lesson; before the instructor told her that maybe she would be
better doing thrash metal rather than ruining Madame Butterfly.
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